So, I Googled up a few things and found a site, which I will mention more on later, which had suggestions on making it more palatable.
More, I say! It will never be truly palatable to me. It's got all the wrong sweetness to tartness ratio, with that flowery apple taste. I could see where it might be okay, in an actual baked apple dish or something. Might, I say!
Yesterday, I spent most of the day washing dishes. No, there really were not that many dishes, but, I am tired all of the time, because of Fibromyalgia, allergies and some sort of thyroid problem, which is bad enough to hurt and help make me fat and tired but not so bad the insurance is ever going to pay to have it treated. Plus, we only have cold water, and, even though we are in a land that claims to be warm (and was blisteringly hot all summer!) it has been cold enough to freeze the last few days.
I feel very good about the amount of work I got done and am working on being positive about that, rather than looking negatively on all that still needs to be done.
That's an aspect of this book and why I am writing all this and sharing it with you. I want to help me be more positive, straighten out my life and lose weight; and, I want to help you do any or all of those that you need to, as well.
So, I will not necessarily be giving you a daily play-by-play, because, I am tired and because the process of change can be quite tiring and distracting. Obviously, it will involve some form of exercise because we all need exercise and, for me, it will involve detoxification because I have been ill for quite some long time and that involves systemic imbalances of bacteria.
What I will do is share with you the things that I have done to alter my life, some of the theories and concepts and other information as to what makes it a good idea to do what I have done, and, some basic personal information as to how my progress has gone. That way, you can see what steps were taken and what the results were and, even if you don't want to do exactly the same things, you might be inspired to find what suits your own needs.
One of the main reasons I am writing this, too, is that almost all diet plans and life changing programs involve a great deal of expense. Well, maybe not that much expense, some of them, for your average middle class or higher living person, but, certainly way out of the honest, hard working just barely keeping off welfare or actually on welfare type.
It does little good to read instructions for what you cannot afford to do.
Well, right now, I am working a job where I make approximately $1,000 - $3,000.00 per year, and I live in a home that costs approximately $500 - $800 per month to pay the bills on. Which means, minus when I need to buy toilet paper or shampoo and that sort of small thing, all my money is going into the house and then my parents' money is making up the rest.
This is not a lifestyle choice, by the way. I am racking up quite the debt, because I do owe them everything they pay out to keep the roof over my head and the utilities on. I'm not proud of it, but, it is the way life is, for now.
I share this information with you, so that you will fully understand, you who think you do not have the money or knowledge or time or energy to make a difference in your life, that, yes, you do.
As long as you have money or food stamps to buy groceries, the ability to make choices over what you buy, something to cook with/in, and enough freedom of movement that you can be said not to be incarcerated, you can make a difference, starting with where you are, right now. Even if you don't have all those things, you can probably do something.
Watch me - the 43 year old woman, with one deformed foot and one leg shorter than the other, who suffers from Fibromyalgia and severe allergies to dust, mold (including yeast, to some degree) and milk, who makes almost enough money per year to pay for 1/4 year of living, who can barely see now even while wearing high strength reading glasses, who has tendons that flare up and stiffen so that she can barely move and muscles that cramp up at random moments, and who could go on and on and on with symptoms - and I shall prove it to you.
What do I have? A stove, a microwave, $363 in food stamps to feed two people, a few ill-sorted pans, a partial box of tin foil, and the food I have already purchased. Which, last month, included two bottles of unpasteurized apple cider vinegar that was on sale and, this month, two jars of unprocessed coconut oil that was on sale.
By the way, if you are like me, where it is hard to get things and you have a tendency to hang onto them out of fear of running out, stop it!
If you decide to do the things that I have done, remember, there is no reason to wait until you have all the correct "ingredients" to start. If you can get a hold of one thing you need, start with that and then work your way from there.
I hope this book helps you. Actually, I hope it only helps you a little bit, because you won't need more than that; but, secondly, I hope, if you do need more help, that it will help you a lot.
Now, obviously, I am writing this book and hoping it will sell. As previously mentioned, I am excessively poor, so I need the money. Therefore, if you can afford it and find it helpful, please purchase it and take it home with you. If you have a friend who would benefit and you can afford it, purchase a separate copy for them, if they can't buy their own.
However, if you can't afford it and are reading someone else's copy, that's perfectly understandable. My first concern is not the money, but, to share and hopefully, by sharing, to help.
I felt that needed to be said, as I read some truly awful things from authors, over the years, as to their opinions of second hand book stores, lending books out and libraries. Granted, it might mean they are losing money; but, equally, it might mean that if only people who could afford the price of a new book read it, that they would be losing millions of readers. So, there is a balance.
Now, pardon me, whilst I stop rambling and start painting. Painting what, do you ask? Well, this book is going to need a cover.
This is the image I have already done, which was created a year or two ago:
Now, I like this image quite well, but, it is not how I envisioned the painting I was attempting to make. I want something which shows the good and bad of the dance that goes with the love and hate of food.
That's what Fat Girl Refrigerator Mambo means. Take a step forward in health, take a step back with a twinkie in hand, spin around with a salad, run towards the refrigerator, shrink back in horror at what you have done.
Here is what it also means: Life is a celebration and in a celebration, there should be certain elements, which make for happiness balanced with safety.
Right now, if you are like I am now, at the beginning of writing this book, you are a fat girl who is dancing to music she doesn't understand, taking steps she has not learned.
Free form dancing can be fun, but, the most beautiful dances which test your bodily endurance and leave you feeling accomplished and joyful are those which you must learn the steps to. Then, once you have mastered the steps, you move on to adding in your own flair as the artist you have become.
Or, you go back to free form dancing, but, you do it with a better understanding of how your body works and why you should move this way, instead of that.
There are no rules on exactly how you should dance, when you are doing the dance of celebration, except two.
1. It must make you feel good.
2. You must learn to dance.
And, if you haven't guessed, yes, dance is going to be involved in this whole debacle. Why?
I always loved to dance. Then, I got to having more health problems and being picked on in school, because I was bigger than other girls. They said I was fat, but, I wasn't, not back then. I had problems with what is now referred to as IBS and broad shoulders, giant bones and astoundingly large muscles for a wee girl.
Over the years, as things became increasingly hard for health reasons and as more people picked on me, I have given up on dancing. It has taken a lot of joy out of my life. It is very hard to do, though, for me, because one leg is longer than the other, which means one hip is jammed up too high and, on that same side, one leg is very weak and so is the buttock, and that is the same leg that has the knee which I injured quite badly when I was around 9 years of age.
It has never recovered from it and now has definite arthritis, as in separate from the Fibromyalgia. That knee and my knuckles both get that red band that says bad things are on the horizon, indeed.
That is also the same side of my body wherein the foot is deformed and that causes my ankle to turn in quite badly and balance is an unobtainable dream, at present.
So, dancing will not be easy. For this, I will need enough money saved up to purchase a new pair of shoes, have the sole built up on one of them and possibly get some very good arch supports, like the kind I have seen at Good Feet, which were $175.00 but came with a lifetime guarantee.
I really need those things for walking, anyway. Right now, I have a few loose quarters in my wallet, if my son hasn't gotten them and a check for $117.00 and some odd cents, which the $100.00 of will immediately go to pay (down) bills.
Hopefully, there will be a tax refund and I will be able to do the shoe thing from that. In case there will not be, I will start saving money, though.
Does it all sound hopeless? Well, I believe in God, which gives me someone to talk to and someone to hope on. It makes life not so lonely and makes many things seem more possible.
It is possible. It will work. Here I go!
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